I write every word of my blogs and social media posts, emails, papers, articles, workbooks, guides, opt-ins, freebies, downloads, etc. - 100% of everything you've read for more than a few years now came from me.

Behind the scenes in 2021, I started subscribing to online programs for coaches by coaches and consultants. I learned something from every experience and I'm grateful for each person who has helped me.

That said, in 2022, I chose to name and package a new program with words that were suggested by a highly successful consultant. Vulnerability: I felt special being in her program and went with the back and forth revisions, trusting her way to be my way. Afterall, I thought, she does very well with online programs - why not learn from the master?

While this is not technically wrong - I had done months of work to get to the point of naming and finishing it - I simply allowed my thoughts and words to fade and bring forward what she decided would work best. (This is so not her fault!)

Hmmm, could that be why I have not fully launched that program. The reason there are still open seats in it?

YES!

I'd had a nagging feeling in my gut for about a year. I'd stuffed it, avoided it, had the thought that starting over on that program would take too long and I didn't have the energy to do all that work over again. (Do you know how much it takes to launch one online program as an addition to what was already going swimmingly!)

I have done my best "to practice what I preach" in prioritizing myself, engaging in self-care and knowing that would lead me to success, health and wealth. I believe this to be true and I work on it daily and help others do the same.

But, folks, I've been in and out of consistent self-care and lately just flat-out struggling with consistency. When I processed what was really going on with me...

I've been feeling uneasy about my messaging - not using my own style and words to share what I do, how I help, what happens when we work together (which is MAGICAL).

Please don't mistake this blog post for me being hard on myself. Just the opposite. It is amazingly healing and freeing to get honest with myself and others.

I talk to you for a living. I am truthful when my subconscious reveals to me what the heck is going on. I want to dance in the waves or in the middle of a street!

Being vulnerable with you... well, the world didn't end, and it won't.

I am sensitive to my voice, my power, strength, courage, beliefs, and values - what I want to say and how to say it.

I'm currently washing others' language out of my work unless it has truly become my language and is 100% authentic for me.

P.S. I can freely admit right here that I really don't like it when people try to put their words in my mouth or summarize me. (Just ask my closest friends ;)) In the case of that online program that's getting the partial boot - I allowed the words, I subsumed the words. That's on me. I mean, that was on me...